Inspiration.

"And that I'll fight my corner,

Maybe tonight I'll call ya,

After my blood turns into alcohol,

No, I just wanna hold ya."

So, it's been too long since I've last been able to rant. And I think it's a good thing. There hasn't been exactly anything to rant about. I feel so light. My life just feels so good. I don't know why. But now, I will write because I have been awed by words. Ed Sheeran's words, specifically.

He's just the most amazing ginger man that exists. The way he writes and composes his songs, it gets to people. It's full of emotion. Even when those words don't make sense, he sings it in a way that does.

He makes me want to be a better writer. He makes me want to be his counterpart writer (not song writer, but author I guess).

I just wish that I could literally meet someone that could make me feel this way. This feeling that I should be better than who I am. A person that could inspire me. Lately, I've only seen these men/women on T.V. as celebrities. And to me, that feels as if they're unreachable. Like they don't even really exist.

I guess that's the one wish I really have in life. To find a person that could inspire in a way that these celebrities could. Celebrities like, Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Joseph Morgan, Paul Wesley, Kendall Jenner, Emma Watson, Blake Lively, Cara Delevingne, Jennifer Lawrence, Ellen Degeneres, Jimmy Fallon. I think these people are very special in their own way. Yes, they are very different, but they have woken a part in me that I never thought existed. They're all very different people that made me the person I am today. And I owe them a lot.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I want to meet a REAL person that could inspire me that way. A real person being a person that could be my friend. Like a real person, not a famous celebrity. And another thing that I'm trying to say is that I hope that I could be an inspiration to someone else. I mean, I haven't been the most perfect role model, but I want to be... one day. I just wish that it would happen for me. 

Whether it happens for me as a writer, an anonymous blogger, a friend, a psychiatrist (in the future), a celebrity (you don't know what the future holds for me), a daughter, a parent (MY future! stop saying shiz. a girl can dream!) or a stranger. I don't care! I just want to be that person for somebody.