Dear You,
Hi. I apologize for provoking you a while ago. It must not be pleasant in your behalf, and trust me, I am not happy of what I have done either. I think this much formality is required as so we have grown far apart this past year. I am confused as to what this much distance has made of us, clearly nothing. I am appalled though that talking to you like that has made me grow a happy bone in my body and a cocky one for that matter. That cockiness though made me spat at you like that. It was the way I was a year before and I have not been like that for months now so I must have pushed too hard. Also, you must be new to this again, seeing that we have not talked at all this year. Though, I would like to address our past like that and mindlessly laugh about it, but clearly it cannot be done. My apologies. But the year is about to end and I wanted the happy bones in me back in my body. I have been sullen for a while now and you must know the change you inflicted in me. I am happy though, much to your interest. I wish though that you trust me like you used to. Opening up to me has been the turning point of our friendship and without it, we are nothing. But then, you must know that I am very and clearly fond of you and Emerson as I am with our dear friend Francois. Take this message as a Christmas Greeting. I also have a feeling that you might not respond because I take it that you would not want to provoke and disappoint your dearest. And I am also glad that you must be quite confused about my message for you now because it is in english and because I am talking to you in circles. I am glad why? Because I am able to tell you how I truly feel yet keep a little to myself, considering that you might not see my pure intentions. (Reading between the lines would help, surely.) Well, that must be all. Greetings to you and your family (Hoping that there is no trouble with you and your mother and father and that there is no fuss with you and handsome young Harvey. Also, please do try to understand Ivan's disrespectful and silly ways. He is your brother. Lucky for you cause I do long for one. Be good, okay?) Especially to a cute young boy that I am definitely very very fond of. He is in his most loveable form. Please do care for him as I want him very safe. He is a charming young boy and I can't imagine him being taken away from this world. Cheers to you as well and your clearly happy life. I pray for your joy day by day and hope that you take care of what's left about you that I loved. Still do. You are a man of many faces my friend and I fancy that part of you, hoping that it has and will never change. Thank you for what's left of our joyride together. It has been fun and I am saddened that it had ended in your hands. Still hoping as usual, me and my expectant self. :) I disappoint you in this message and I know I do. I know you well enough to predict that. Sorry, I thought it was neccessary for me to write you a message that beholds my thoughts. It's a technique I'm trying to learn and I hope it works. It does have me rambling for a while here. And also, I would like to let you know that I completely understand the way you feel now, the way you felt. Again, thank you for the enjoyable years, old friend. 'Til next time, hopefully. :) If there would be.
Yours truly and always,
Me
P.S. I slept crying at 4 am today, seeing a resemblance in you and dearest Christian Grey. Not the sexual and kinky part but as the dark-eyed beauty that you are. A man/child with too many problems, hidden in the shadows and the dark. He is much darker but you get my point. And also, his tenderness and sweetness resembles yours flawlessly. I bet you would be reminded a lot of yourself if you happen to stumble into his name. Sure enough it had that effect on me and made me cry a river.
To your sweet self, take care. An Advance Happy New Year to you and your loved ones. I remember you addressing me like family in second year, still hoping I still have that kind of effect on you, but surely, there is none. Old friend, I am comfortable speaking in english and that is why I choose to write this way. As you can see, I have said much to you now than I ever did before. I hope you understand my intentions. Thank you.
BTW, check out the sweet tunes of Sleeping with Sirens. Start with their song James Dean & Audrey Hepburn. It is lovely. If it is not for you, please try to listen to Wake Up by Coheed and Cambria, it is lovely to me as well. I sure still hope that we still share the same preference in music. ;)
Goodnight Old Friend. May you be blessed endlessly. Surely, it is what you deserve. Good day!
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