Trying Hard and Failing

Could you really count forgiveness attained from begging as a legitimate apology? The answer is a no, but I think that's the only thing that I'm going to get.

She's been so cold to me lately. She doesn't reply to most of my texts and she doesn't care about me or anything that I do. Even if I showed her how much I care about her, she makes it seem like nothing happened.

I guess I kind of deserved that, being a douche and all, but is this really necessary? I'm trying my best!

I guess my best just isn't enough. She's worth it, and if it meant that I needed to exert more than my best, then I would do it.

Abigail Williams is just the most forgiving and awesome person I know. I know she would let go eventually, but until how long is she keeping this charade? Until I learn my lesson? I've learned my lesson! I would never do it again. I would never leave her again.

Whoa. It's strange. It's like she's been such an important part of my life yet I never noticed it. I've never realized how significant her mere presence has been. She's---she's important to me, more than I could ever imagine.

I guess it's true. You'll never know what you have until you lose it.