"It's a quarter after one, la la la.."
It's not yet a quarter, but it's getting there. Do I have permission to just cry? No sleeping the whole night in exchange of a crying session, but only if euphoria would be guaranteed after the session. Does that sound sane? Probably not.
It just hurts. It still hurts.
I've already ranted everything to Marcus, yet all this pain keeps rushing back. It's not easy to get over it because it's not an easy problem.
If only I could forget all the joy of our friendship. Is amnesia possible if I hit my head on the wall really really hard? Probably not.
I've already finished it with him. I told him to leave me alone and to do whatever he wants in his life because I don't care anymore. Even if I still did, I told him I didn't. I'm being tough. I need to be brave. I need to be strong for myself.
However, it doesn't help that he keeps on texting me. Being the good girl that I am, I reply to some of it, but I intentionally show my distaste in every syllable I give.
That ought to get rid of him. Even if it didn't, I hope it makes him realize how terrible he treated me. I could just cry forever. That's how painful it is to be betrayed by your best friend.
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